Thinking Out Loud

why don't plans ever go as planned? things rarely turn out the way you want them to, but somehow, it's almost better that way...in some weird odd way... sometimes these surprises or deviations are even better than the planned outcomes....i like how life's unpredictable in that way, I love being surprised by those other things that would have gone unnoticed or unappreciated at first sight, begin confused, feeling a loss of control... everything in this world is ordered somehow, I think it's difficult to go outside that realm and be apart of something that is disorganized and chaotic...and I don't mean being stressed or overworked, but chaotic in a disordered way, outside anything tangible. we look at something that is chaotic as something bad, but it doesn't have to be. i wish I could find a medium in which I find pure chaos, something unrecognizable, something that can't be characterized by our current means.....i wish i could see things in a different dimension, under a different spectrum, outside a controlled system....